Today is Easter.
I’ve had somewhat of a rough day.
It’s been an emotional week.
I’m not sure why….just lots of stuff coming up (and hopefully out) for me.

This weekend I have been grieving a major loss from many years ago. A loss that I had never really recognized as such before.

I had a very special friend during my teen years. I don’t really want to share about my teen years. Let’s just say they were rough and I didn’t have many friends, except this one. I lost this good friend when I was 18. That was a particularly rough year for me. My Grandmother died. I graduated. I lost my best friend and I didn’t say goodbye.

My best friend was a horse. He was quiet and calm and gentle and loving and beautiful. I showed him during my teen years. When I quit showing, he was sold at an auction. I couldn’t face that loss, so I didn’t. I don’t remember crying. Who could I cry to when my best friend was gone?

Today I am crying.
Today isn’t very convenient for these tears, for this pain.
Grief isn’t convenient.

I am choosing to share this because of what happened in church today.
I was feeling all of this and trying not to. I was trying to come back to the present and hear what was being said in the service. I was also feeling overwhelmed by the story of Easter. It’s really more than I can fathom or process on a good day. It’s way too much for my soul to take in today.

So I turned my heart and my attention to God, to Jesus, and tried to listen with my heart and my mind. These are the sweet words that I heard from my Precious Lord and Savior.
He didn’t remind me that He died for me.
No.
On Easter Sunday, He comforted me over the loss of my horse some 30-odd years ago.
His Love is far beyond my comprehension.

You will be okay, My Sweet Child.
Don’t be afraid to feel this pain and sorrow. It will pass.
I love you, Sweet Child.
Let Me pour My Love into you, through you.

May you also be overwhelmed with His Sweet Love for you today.
Happy Easter.
pam